Stop playing the victim

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The last thing I want is pity, or sympathy. Empathy is good though. Because we've all experienced shitty moments in our lives. 

I admit, I used to play the victim, why me, me me me? I don't think I was being too selfish craving "normality" , but these days I'm actually coming to terms with being a "freak" and thanks to the wise words of someone I admire very much, am taking "ownership" of some of the conditions which have been rather crippling for quite a few years. (Thank you David)

Back in 2005 I commenced 18 months of cognitive behavioral therapy, through a purple haze. A lot of truth was exchanged, but the weed acted like a virtual barrier, soaking up most of the "lightbulb" moments. I'm sure it helped with the post traumatic side of things (witnessing a point blank shooting) but the rest is a haze.

Anyway, I don't want to keep harping on about the past, it's really tedious going over old ground, and the universe knows I've wasted enough time analysing things I cannot change or have not control over.

I promise I'll post about my wake up call tomorrow. The rest of my life started that night, and wonderful people are coming into my life, as well as opportunities, new and exciting ones!

Pat Benatar - The Victim
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9xbVyF3no9s